Old habits never die ......or so the adage goes. I desperately would like to make a case against that. Unfortunately, as is the case with most cliches, there are elements of truth that got the cliche started in the first place.
My old habit, at least the one giving me trouble right now, is my predilection for doing too much, busying myself until I become a swirling mass of activity spinning dangerously out of control.
One of the things that I had noticed about being in Paris is that this is a city to live in. I could breathe here and enjoy the sites and sounds and sensations that weave together to form a rich fabric of experiences. But, my old habit of mind has begun to intrude on my reverie. First I started one job, then another, followed by why not??.........a third. Then I finished one intensive course of study only to begin another. Will I ever learn?
So I make myself feel slightly less out of control by the awareness of my awareness that this strong habit is once again beginning to take hold. Awareness is the key; worthwhile teaching from an inspiring zen retreat I attended some time ago. Now, when the going begins to get rough, it is the time to really apply it.
The increase in future posts to this blog will be evidence as to my progress in the ongoing battle with myself.
Once again we are on parallel paths...hopefully, we will have the opportunity to once again share these moments in the unhurried manner of our youth...I'm with you, Mary.
Posted by: Carrie | April 26, 2008 at 06:43 AM